why I don't share the gospel

it's not because I don't believe it's true.  I do.

it's not because I'm not sure.  I am.

it's not because I don't think it would bless every life.  it would.


it's because it teaches so many things that I fail at.
it's because I'd rather share the gospel when I've got those things sorted out. 
and that hasn't happened yet.

it's sort-of like not wanting to give you a present I haven't had time to wrap.
or not wanting you to arrive before I've finished cleaning the house.

I feel that when I hand you the gospel, all you'll see is the package I wrap it in with my life, and you'll miss the perfect gift that is inside.


why don't you let someone else give it to you instead?  mormon.org.

Sorrow and Wonder

When children are shot at school
And when bombs explode at a marathon
When tsunamis swallow up cities
Or a baby drowns in the tub

I wonder how people survive the sorrow

without understanding the eternal purpose and the relative brevity of life on earth.


I wonder how they find hope in a world so violent

without a certainty that God will reclaim the earth again and restore peace.


I wonder how they find comfort in their pain

without prayer and the Holy Ghost.


Because even with all of these things, I find it hard to keep going.

The Two Best Weekends of the Year

General Conference

A buoy to my heart.

An anchor to my life.